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December 2008 
A silver lining in a challenging condition
Posted on Dec 21st, 2008
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Kimberly
Kimberly
This is my first time blogging, ever. And it is going to be about me but really about love. I was recently diagnosed with lymphoma. I first was in shocked. Couldn't even ask any question from the doctor on the phone, like what kind of lymphoma. Then I cried, then I got angry. All in a very short period of time. Once I started to get the information I got scared so called in the troops; all my trusted friends. Some got pissed about it, some cried, some couldn't believe (I was too healthy). And all gave me love and offers of support. I was wonderfully stunned. The amount of palpable love and energy was staggering. And still is. I can feel when someone is sending me prays, love, energy, thoughts. I feel so incredibly blessed and loved. I get calls, cards, email. And it all makes a difference. Makes me cry, the tears of joy
I have had my first chemo and only have slight nausea, I am taking meds to control it. Not big on meds but do want to take care of my body. Everyone is still there with me. Calls, emails, text messages. Technology is great.
So to the love. I have two heart practices that I have been doing; getting it a little bit. When pushed against the wall with this cancer I really had to take a look at death and do I somehow want to die. A part of me was saying yes. I had been feeling passionless, depressed, direction-less, lonely... With this push I really had to contemplate this. I realized one of the things I am really excited about is Barack Obama, truly. I want to be around to see what we can do. I realized I love this world. I really want to be around to help. I could finally really feel my heart connection to love, god, source, whatever that experience is.
Once I realized I really wanted to live I went deeper or relaxed more into my heart. And with all the love coming my way I felt ecstasy, true bliss. The depth is humbling.
I want to share the this experience with you to share and spread the open heart and love.
Love to all,
Kimberly
I have had my first chemo and only have slight nausea, I am taking meds to control it. Not big on meds but do want to take care of my body. Everyone is still there with me. Calls, emails, text messages. Technology is great.
So to the love. I have two heart practices that I have been doing; getting it a little bit. When pushed against the wall with this cancer I really had to take a look at death and do I somehow want to die. A part of me was saying yes. I had been feeling passionless, depressed, direction-less, lonely... With this push I really had to contemplate this. I realized one of the things I am really excited about is Barack Obama, truly. I want to be around to see what we can do. I realized I love this world. I really want to be around to help. I could finally really feel my heart connection to love, god, source, whatever that experience is.
Once I realized I really wanted to live I went deeper or relaxed more into my heart. And with all the love coming my way I felt ecstasy, true bliss. The depth is humbling.
I want to share the this experience with you to share and spread the open heart and love.
Love to all,
Kimberly
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